dear dope chick:

growing up, i possessed the ability to speak Spanish much more fluently than i do now.

had i continued with the consistent conversational style speech, i suppose one could assume i’d have been fluent by now. 

but that’s not true.

in fact, all that’s hypothetical.

what could have been is a projection of where i, or others looking at + assessing the situation, would like to think i’d be.

it’s in no way reality.

i can complain about my lack of stick-to-itiveness or make excuses as to why i stopped, but what does any of that matter right now?

i have more of a chance now to grow + expand than i did then because hello?!?!?!!! — it didn’t happen then!

there is value in where i am now.

currently, i’m able to relearn + refresh my Spanish speaking skills all while introducing the language to + learning with my family.

i’m not fluent by any means, but because i am using what i have where i am now, i’m able to build more connection with them all while building my vocabulary at the same time.

it’s a win-win + i love every moment of it. 

there is value in where you are now.

where you could, should or, hell, would be isn’t important.

just the mere thought of that is robbing you of your experience now. 

believe it or not, there is so much value in your current position.

whether you’re learning a second language or rediscovering parts of you you’ve seemed to have buried + forgotten, rejoice here + now.

you’ve made it to this point in your journey + the possibilities here are endless.

do you continue down the path you are currently on?

do you pivot?

do you wash your hands of it all + do something totally different?

this is all your choice!

understand the value of being right here right now + enjoy the time you have in this moment.

you possess the power to choose the value you’ll extract from this this moment; to extract its lessons + to use the information you gain to refine how you align with your innermost desires.

be you, be dope!
Phylicia Sadsarin
Mindset Coach